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Triggered: Healing codependency through the ascension process

Triggered: Healing codependency through the ascension process


  Dearest readers, Do you feel like the number of times that you are emotionally triggered has increased over the last few years, months, even days? If you do, you are not alone. The ascension process is a gradual awakening of the human being, and a transition or healing process as well, taking us from […]

Beyond the shadow of doubt: transformation of beliefs

Beyond the shadow of doubt: transformation of beliefs


Dearest readers, Doubt is an integral part of the human experience. When we choose to incarnate on Earth, we choose separation from our true identity, which is love, unity, peace, and joy. We choose victimhood, or else we choose to be tyrants. We come to Earth to experience pain, fear, lack, and duality. Why in […]

The Wounded Mother and bringing the truth to light: some thoughts for her and for her children

The Wounded Mother and bringing the truth to light: some thoughts for her and for her children


Dearest readers, Today is Mother’s Day in the United States. My mother has refused to speak to me for many years. The last time we exchanged words, she screamed at me over the phone, refusing to go to her own mother’s funeral. That was in April of 2007. I could not find a commercial Mother’s […]

Playing with toys to channel higher self

Playing with toys to channel higher self


Dearest readers, There are many ways to connect to your subconscious mind, intuition, and what New Age teachings call your “higher self”. Today, many people publish YouTube or Facebook videos, blogs, vlogs, and charge money for personal or group sessions to either share channeled information or to assist others in their personal development and awakening […]

Trust, freedom, and power: the price of conditional love

Trust, freedom, and power: the price of conditional love


  Dearest readers, I’ve been musing about belonging and freedom. Naturally, we should be easily able to be part of a family or group and also maintain our individuality. At least it seems simple on the surface. Thousands of years of conditional love have robbed us of our spontaneity, our ability to love self and […]

The Stranger & the mirror: How looking inward changes our cultural paradigm towards outsiders


Dear readers, I recently reread Albert Camus’ iconic novel, The Stranger. It struck me as I was reading that Meursault’s detached personality and precise, yet objective truthfulness would probably place him somewhere on the autism spectrum today. As most people know, the bizarre cultural mindset of the time in which the novel is set (1950’s […]

Where do I belong?


Hello readers, I’ve spent a big chunk of my life thinking about belonging and identity, and also about love of self and others…mostly because my own mother and father were never able to love me for myself and eventually cut me off from the family in every way. They tried to make sure that I […]

I sprained my ambition ( a poem)


the day the neurosis became a puzzle piece enlightened the driving force fueling that endless thirst for love and acceptance revealed lost its power Do I wish it was still a darkly felted mystery sullen, concealed velvety with desires unfulfilled and so years later the clarity of the single track long ago demolished ambition and […]

Does Duality Make Us Sick?


  Hello readers, From a very young age because of circumstances in my life causing me to be rejected by my family, I have spent a lot of time alone.  Introspective by nature anyway, this solitude caused me to think deeply about the meaning of my life and my place in this world.  Instinctively, my […]

Guardian Angels Teach Us to Fly


Hello readers, The last few days I have been mulling over how my life seems to have gotten progressively more challenging the last several years.  At times, I have felt despair, as if a curse has enveloped me, as difficult persons and situations have entangled me in their webs of intrigue, their narcissistic dramas and […]

Demons, Self, Relationships, Wholeness


Hello readers, I don’t know about you, but the older I get, the more clearly I see myself (and the less I like myself and other people too.) What I mean is that the ideal image of the nice, kind self I once felt accurately described me became out of date.  As the sides of […]

La Vie de Boheme: a slice of memory


Hello readers, Today a patron at the library where I work used the term “la vie de boheme” to describe a book we had both read, “How Should a Person Be?”, by Canadian author Sheila Heti.  The expression brings back to me my younger years in Paris, as well as the eponymous 1992 film directed […]