Everything is perfect

Dearest readers,

The concept that everything is perfect right now, not only in our lives, but in the world, is a challenging concept to swallow. But it is also very relaxing to realize that we need only to shift our perspective on what we are experiencing to dramatically change the quality of our life experiences.

Everything in life can be relaxing, even when we are in the middle of chaos.

When I say that everything is perfect, what I mean is that everything we think, feel, and experience in what we perceive as the “outside world” is a perfect reflection of who we are at any given moment. It is a perfectly accurate snapshot of our energy, transformed into thoughts, feelings, events, and energetic patterns.

What we call reality is a holographic mirror of our inner states of being: mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual.

We always have the choice on how we react or respond to any situation, thought, or emotion. Reaction is generally a knee-jerk response that has been conditioned by habit or training from family, religion, culture, or past experiences and a desire to protect ourselves from further hurt. To respond to a situation is different than to react to one.

React or respond?

When we respond, it is implied, I feel, that we have paused for just a moment to reflect, before deciding what is the most beneficial or appropriate way to proceed.

Our lives are actually magical and full of wondrous details and opportunities for love, friendship, moments of encounter and discovery, sharing, and growth. When we are pulled into frightening, challenging, life or death situations or when our lives appear to be humdrum, without excitement or perspectives for hope, we face our deepest shadows.

Our life is a work of art that we are creating in every moment.

Anxiety, depression, anger, fear, hatred…the spectrum of emotions and expressions generated by our pain and feelings of lack – lack of self-love, shame, lack of self-empowerment all work together to produce situations in our lives to prod us to look ourselves in the eye and to take stock of our lives.

The shadow is the sum of creative energies that we have either suppressed or misunderstood.

For if our lives are full of drama and despair and our hearts are not at peace, then our world is indeed a perfect reflection of our inner personal state as well as being an illustration of the collective unconscious.

Becoming more self-aware and more loving of self is the fulcrum by which we can leverage our shift from depression to joy. Taking responsibility for the perfection of our life journey, no matter what it looks like, is the ultimate act of self-empowerment.

Taking responsibility for our inner lives allows us to emerge from depression back into joy.

To be able to show gratitude for whatever manifests in our lives is true power and is the key to shifting from acting and feeling like a victim to being a teacher, healer, mentor, or a creator of realities that reflect a more ascended perspective.

Our current reality or collective state of consciousness (which could be labeled Patriarchy, if we want to resort to labels) focuses on separation, blame, shame, lack, control, and hierarchy.

Whenever I am going through a difficult situation, I remind myself that everything that I have created in my reality is perfect, because I am responsible for its creation. There are still aspects of my shadow that manifest, coming up for expressions of gratitude and release.

It is impossible to be born and grow up on Earth as a human being without being indoctrinated or conditioned. It is up to each of us to wake up and to remember our true nature, as multi-dimensional creators of realities.

This is how we get out of our conditioned victim state that is run by our ego. This is how we ascend to the 5th dimension and beyond. It’s all about taking responsibility for what we create and for giving thanks for all that we are experiencing now or have experienced at some point along the way.

The world doesn’t always have to be as it is now.

It is a perfect reflection of a system that we have accepted as truth. We have accepted to play the roles of victims, persecutors, rescuers. As we shift our inner landscapes, that which we experience collectively will automatically mirror our personal growth.

As many people worry about the escalating chaos, anger, hatred, and polarity in the world, it’s the perfect time to look inward and to see how we can heal those very same expressions of emotional pain, division, separation, and lack in ourselves. The perfection of life is such that when we do our inner work, we are, in a very real way, healing the world.

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Art and healing the collective body: reconfiguring controversial public art

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Dearest readers,

A friend and very talented and compassionate fellow writer recently shared with me the fascinating and horrifying true story of her ancestor, Massachusetts Puritan Hannah Duston (1657-1736).

Hannah Duston has been commemorated and was at one time celebrated for her brutal and vengeful acts of scalping and murdering in their sleep 10 Native American members of her captor family, including women and children, after she and two other women were captured by members of the Quebecois Abenaki tribe during a siege. Duston claimed that her newborn daughter was killed by the Abenaki during the journey to the island where she and the two other women where held hostage.

We cannot know how we will behave in an extreme situation until we find ourselves involved in that very situation. To judge others and how they act is tempting, but is ultimately very unfair.

Six different monuments commemorate Hannah Duston’s act of maternal revenge. These monuments were erected far after the fact, during the 19th century, and were used to justify scalp hunting and brutality against Indigenous peoples.


The short history of the United States is full of bloodshed, torture, violence, greed, and inequality, but our collective story doesn’t have to continue on this path.

Many of us, especially those of us living in the Southern United States, are constantly reminded of the deep shadows of our historical past. Confederate monuments and whether to preserve or do away with them have in recent months and years made headlines.

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People always do the best they can, at any given moment, based on the level of consciousness at which they are currently operating

It is clear to me that the diverse peoples of our nation have much clearing and healing work to do. The extensive abuses of the past, justified by a level of consciousness that held no qualms about treating other living beings (as well as Nature) as property, can no longer be accepted or considered acceptable.

Blaming, shaming, criticizing, judging, and condemning the actions of past and present humans and cultures does nothing to heal us, nor does it help anyone to shift to a higher level of consciousness

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Humanity is evolving, but the people and the planet still carry the energy of these wounds. And the works of art that celebrated a culture of intolerance and greed remind us all that these shadows live inside all of us, in the forms of racism, social injustice, the ideals of patriarchy, gender inequality…all of the values based on separation from our true human nature…in which there is balance, kindness, compassion, truth, and trust in our inner or intuitive guidance.

Art is a powerful tool for healing

I believe that as both individuals and as nations, we can heal the wounds of our collective past, for ourselves and for our ancestors. Art is a wonderful tool for healing.

My personal, intuitive, and creative suggestion for a step towards healing the wounds created by our nation’s founders and sustained by subsequent generations is to empower all of the diverse peoples and communities of our country.  To create projects allowing all of us to work together to recreate all of the monuments that bear witness to the pain caused by a system that allowed only a few to flourish and many to suffer.


A call to recreate controversial public monuments

Every monument in this country that upholds the old values and level of consciousness could be deconstructed. Broken down into thousands of individual and neutral pieces. A community could then organically work together to build something new from the old.


Bronze can be melted. Stone can be transformed into chips, blocks, pebbles, spheres…into anything we can imagine. We can paint, scatter, tell new stories. Create through collaboration and creative play. By working together cooperatively, all peoples could embody the new level of consciousness represented by unity, peace, compassion, non-judgment, joy, playfulness, wonder, and imagination.

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Art and imagination restore a sense of wonder and faith in our innate creative nature

Most people do not realize to what degree they are conditioned by society, family, education, media. It is impossible to incarnate on Earth without being normalized and separated from one’s true nature. That is the adventure of being human and living on Earth. To forget who we are, and then, as we navigate the challenges of life, to remember.

We all have a choice. To stay in the old way of being, based on separation, hierarchy, projection of pain onto others, competition, judgment, shame, victimization, codependency and to play that game for as long as we feel we need to…Or, we can realize that we have learned the lessons that all of these painful experiences of separation have provided. We can choose to be grateful for those lessons, and then move up to the next level of consciousness. There is no right or wrong way of being. All experiences are important, and we are all doing the best we know how.


It is my hope that humanity will begin to see the beauty in our diversity. By forgiving those who lived before us, we also forgive ourselves and love ourselves more. To give ourselves permission to feel joy once again. Forgiveness is an art form that allows us to let go of anger, hatred, and fear. When we let go of the past with gratitude, we are able to move forward and to create something new. That is healing. Remembering what it feels like to be whole, intact, full of love and trust.



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Ode to COVID: Revenge of the Introverts (a poem)


Latterday patriarchs melting members

saw their masculinity attacked

Obelisks in erectile dysfunction

The all-seeing eye viewing from atop its pyramid of superiority

their numbers drawn, their times counted

For out of balance the balancing sheet revealed

Slithering from the depths of a navel impaled

the spiked punch came from a long-planned itinerary of doom

Punching holes into the shadows

Piercing the collective human body and studding it

Grief, drama, trauma bleeding out

Revealing the unity of light behind the shaded curtain

When we were finally alone and quiet

the joy of gratitude that the crisis machine generated

Sprang forth: a fountain of nostalgia

front-yard picnics and pale children without screen-time-out-

Doors open and doors close

New normal is not going to pass away

or slide back to bankster paradise shelter for

Service to self entities have orchestrated in a familiar tune

Floating the wars and crises from which they habitually create and profit

Chuckling while in consternation humans suckle and feed hungrily on the illusory drama mill

Flipping sides and dividing us so expertly with no grounds

So easy to control humans because humans want to be loved and accepted

Humans fear ridicule, rejection, abandonment. Feeling ridiculous. Failure.

Conspiracy theories. Speak them and you are done. Incredible. Not credible.

Speak the truth and you are done. Your career and family leave you.

The puppeteers know the ropes.


while streets empty and people count their rolls of toilet paper at home

The introverts everywhere rejoice

While feeling secretly only a tiny bit guilty

About those in the bubbles struggling for air

For we have crawled just a tiny bit closer to what life on Earth should feel like.

Slown down

With room and time for reflection and peace

COVID messenger of balance, you wear a skirt and pants

Perhaps the masters of illusion did create you to submerge all of Earth into death, defeat, poverty, and darkness

But do they not know that the darkness is merely a fractal of the One Light of consciousness?

They probably do know.

They just believe that humans are too dumb to realize how powerful they really are.

COVID has poked holes in the cloak and shield

The bell jar under which we all live has been pierced from every angle

All over the globe humans pull the fog from ears, eyes, nose

How could we have allowed this to go on for so long?



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Creativity in the time of COVID-19: Why be creative only in times of crisis?

Just Desserts: The End of the World As We Know It

Just Desserts: The End of the World As We Know It; Original oil painting by Rebekah Berger, 16 x 20, oil on canvas, 2019-2020

Dearest readers,

I celebrated (in my own way) my 53rd birthday this April 4th. 4/4/2020 is said to be the day of perfect balance in the year of perfect balance. Although the world seems chaotic these days, we are clearly shifting in the physical or most dense areas of life on Earth to a new way of being. A new paradigm.

As I have been working from home, I am hearing on the radio and other media as well as observing for myself ways in which people are now being creative when faced with the restrictions imposed because of the COVID-19 pandemic.

The painting featured above illustrates our current situation, though I created it before all of this happened.

Change in circumstances allows people to think and act in new ways.

Airlines are shipping unused meals to hospitals and to people put out of work. Teenagers are creating apps and websites to help people find much needed resources, such as food, jobs, as well as entertainment. People are unifying to assist one another. Companies and individuals are shifting their regular production lines to create surgical masks, gowns, and other needed equipment. Things they have no experience making, yet they have taken a leap of faith in order to help others they have never met.

A crisis helps people to shift away from normal habits and ingrained behaviors.

The new paradigm represents a shift away from selfishness, exploitation, poverty, rigidity, separation, and duality. To name a few aspects of living on a slave planet, dominated by darkness and hidden agendas. The new paradigm is characterized by creativity, unity, harmony, personal expression for the higher collective well-being, abundance and empowerment.

All of Earth, her creatures, plants, animals, elements, as well as human beings have been under attack for thousands of years. The crisis is permanent and is not new.

In the old way of the world, all humans are victims. Our conscious awareness is highly conditioned and subject to fear and manipulation in every instant. These crises are created purposefully as part of the duality agenda to keep humanity divided against self and others. The agenda orchestrates our conscious lives, causing us to perpetuate hatred of self and others. We are conditioned to live every moment in fear of not having enough.  Living in lack suppresses creativity. The system expertly and  constantly labels us, shames us, divides us against one another and distract us from looking inward – as within our inner life lies the source of our intuition and creativity.

We don’t need to be in a state of crisis to be creative. Creativity IS human nature. Kindness and unity are our birthright.

Most people don’t yet seem to realize that this constant creation of crises that we call news or current events is artificial. The world does not need to be a violent place with so much suffering. What is even more important to know: human beings are not victims by nature. We are creators. It is our true nature to create the world we live in. To recreate it every day. To be in flow, not in fear.

Human nature has been molded and distorted with constant effort to keep humanity in a state of fear and enslavement. It does not have to be this way.

As human beings which innately hold the seed of light from which the entire multiverse was created, we can create anything that we imagine. Both as individuals and as societies, we all hold the power to create the change we wish to experience in the so-called physical world.

We each hold all of the creative energy and the blueprint for all that exists within us. Just like a drop of water contains the blueprint for an entire ocean.

Imagination is a form of inspiration. We channel from our intuitive source – our solar plexus and third eye – to connect to the higher guidance to which every human being on Earth has full access. This is our birthright. We are all super-heroes.

Every human being is a super hero.

The handful of wealthy but destructive and greedy individuals who have been running life as we know it on the planet do everything within their power to suppress our innate creativity and empowerment every day.

The world today is governed by an invisible enemy. COVID-19 is just one facet of their destructive dominance over the planet.

We are instructed from birth on how to shame and blame self and others to create constant confusion  and pain on the planet. We are taught to do this, and we, for the most part, obey. We feel we are victims of a system, but, implicitly, we agree to this conditioning and carry out its orders.

Shame, blame, pain, and fear are the mantra of the world government that keeps us in separation. Their goal is to destroy all life on Earth. 

The results of this system of duality and separation from our true selves and from Nature are the death culture in which we have been raised and live. To end the death culture and to revive life, harmony, beauty, health, freedom, peace, abundance and well-being for all on Earth, we must wake up and remember who we are.

We have the power to stop the destruction. We simply can choose to no longer allow it. We have the power of choice. The power of awareness.

We create peace, or we agree to war. We create health, or we agree to sickness and even to this pandemic. We create freedom and abundance, or we agree that some will be rich and many will be poor and struggle. We hold the power in our creative nature to change the world.

Our creative power is awesome and unlimited.

This particular crisis is a seed point in that the entire human population on the planet is sharing in this collective experience all at the same time. This is unique in human history, as far as we know.

COVID-19 is a global seed point for total transformation for life on Earth.

There is a war being fought behind the scenes for the liberation of the planet. This war has been going on for a long time – at least since the early 1950’s, long before I was born. But even though this war has mostly been hidden from the general public, there are many clues that can help us realize that we do not live in democracies, and that the general well-being of humanity is not being supported by those in power.

The world as we know it is not a happy place. There is no reason for any one to suffer here.

As individuals and as societies, we all have a role to play in restoring light and unity to the planet. There are many things we can do, even alone at home. Sending love and light to all living beings and to the planet by expressing conscious thoughts of love and support for others – human, plant, animal, or for the air, water, soil, and to the consciousness of the planet is something important and creative that every single person can do. No one else even has to know you are doing it to make a difference.

We each have the power to make a significant difference. Even if no one else knows about what we are doing.

We can think about how we can use our personal talents and abilities, our experience and our compassionate attitude on how we can contribute to the greater good. It doesn’t have to be big gestures. Just smiling and slowing down to be attentive to other people, for example, the cashier at the grocery store changes the world. Looking at the sidewalk and avoiding stepping on an insect makes a difference. Drawing pictures on your sidewalk makes a difference. Sharing food you prepare or grow makes a difference. We all have the power to make a difference every day.

I want to live in a kind, compassionate, creative world, full of synchronicities and joy. What do you want to create?

We have all been trained to believe in the power of science and technology. But as human beings, we are a supremely powerful form of technology. One that is connected to the planet and to the source of all Being. Technology and science do not mean that we have to be disconnected or “objective”. Those beliefs are part of the old paradigm of separation. Many still are giving their power away to these beliefs.

The truth is, science doesn’t have to harm the Earth. Technology shouldn’t make us sick. The Earth is not a commodity. She is a living, conscious being and should be honored and respected as such.

Science has replaced religion in the world system of separation. We are taught that science can explain everything and that the knowledge of experts is more important that what we sense innately, what we feel is right and true.

But those who are awake and who do remember our innate power are ready to prove otherwise. We are all one. There is nothing and no one that is separate from the source of all that is. Light and darkness have long been at play in the illusion of duality that has now played itself out on Earth. The contrast of polarities have taught us so much about life, about ourselves, about one another. I am grateful for all of the experiences I have endured in density. But I am also ready to create and to experience something different.

The collective experiences of contrast brought about by separation and polarity have taught us so much about ourselves. But this paradigm has reached its useful end.

It is time to live in flow. To use our creative talents every day. To no longer feel obliged to work jobs we dislike in order to earn money and support our families. We have better things to do with our short time in these bodies here on Earth. When we are in flow and are using our innate creative abilities and are intuitively connected, we feel happy. We feel alive.

When we are in the flow, we feel happy, invigorated, alive.

Survival is stressful and exhausting. Most of us are suffering from PTSD. Many, especially those who have been privileged under the system of separation do not even know they are suffering. We are recovering. Creativity and creative expression are healing tools as we shift to the new paradigm.

Post-COVID-19: Let’s choose to live fully every day, and to use all of our creative powers to support all life on Earth.


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Soul mirrors: healing emotional wounds through relationship

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Dearest readers,

I have long been interested in the quest for self-love and the healing of the emotional body. It is so fascinating to me how we attract into our lives the exact mirror of our own emotional state in the people we encounter. If you pay close attention, you will see the patterns.

Every person we meet is a mirror of our own soul and energy signature.

Until we are living in a place where we are in total acceptance, non-judgment, unconditional love, and peace with ourselves, we have conscious and sub-conscious wounds that require our awareness and compassion to heal.

Some wounds are personal, some are familial, and some range back to ancestral traumas, past lives, and collective suffering as well. We all live in varying degrees of separation from our true self, and if we do want to rise to a higher state of consciousness, then self-love is the most important path to take. It is impossible to embrace another if we literally stand in shame and judgment of our self.

Self-love comes with peace and neutrality.

Duality is characterized by competition, codependent relationships, shame, blame, manipulation. We are taught to use others to get our emotional needs met, and this is the reason why there are so many flavors of narcissism to be discovered when dealing with other people.

Everyone expresses their narcissistic wounds differently, depending on our innate temperament, personality, and family dynamics. But our reality does not need to stop here.


By awakening our awareness to the fact that every human being that is drawn into our own energy field is put there for a purpose, we can learn to better love and appreciate our self as well as others. The way we can realize that a person has something to bring us as a soul mirror is that they trigger an emotional response of some kind in us.

Every person who triggers us is a gift and, if we so choose, represents an opportunity to heal.

My own personal trigger that I have been working on of late is that of emotional neediness. I have found, when I examine my own way of relating to myself and others, that I am very stoic. I can give a lot to nurture the needs of others, but I don’t like to ask for help (though I have learned to do so in times of need), and I am not as good at taking care of myself as I am of others.

Every person’s emotional wounds are tempered by personality and express themselves in an unique way.

This wound stems from a family system dysfunction that most likely goes back many generations. In my family of origin, if something (a gift, for example) was given, it was expected that I or my siblings be forever indebted for that gift, and that we give up all personal freedom in exchange for what was presented as love or emotional support. Since I did not want to give up my personal freedom, I decided that I did not need or want their (or anyone’s) love and support. Of course, I did want love and acceptance as we all do, but not at that price!

It feels so wonderful to stop judging and condemning self and others, and to stop feeling the need to help or cure others of their problems!

In order to learn to love myself, the beautiful soul matrix gives me many opportunities to heal…in the form of people with mirroring wounds. These people have a similar but opposite presentation to their wounding. They too were emotionally neglected or abused in some way by their wounded families, and their response was to become extremely needy and self-centered. The other side of the same coin, if you will.

The people who sit near me at work are amazing soul mirrors in different ways.

By realizing that we share the same or similar wounds, I am able to be grateful for this presentation and discomfort. Once I am able to observe the wounds and the relationship, I have been able to feel more neutral about these friends. Less triggered, and more compassionate to them and to my own inner child. Soul mirrors help us to let go of pain and judgment of self and others.

Once healed of our emotional wounds, our light can shine out into the world and help others to raise their frequency.

We are now being given more opportunities than ever to heal ourselves and to return to self-love, our natural state of being. By paying close attention to what and who triggers you, and by remaining vigilant of your own inner state, you too can work on healing yourself. A person who truly loves him or herself unconditionally is a magnificent gift to the entire planet.

By healing ourselves, our sphere of influence and the light we spread around us is enormous. Well worth the effort!

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Natural Technology and Artificial Intelligence


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Dearest readers,

The biggest question of our time, I believe, is this:

Will you take back your power and freedom, or do you agree to become the property of a corporation, essentially an enslaved cog in a machine?

A.I. or artificial intelligence, in essence, is the use of artificial (not of nature or unnatural) technology to supplant our own innate ability to give and receive information through intuition.

If you examine the state of the world today and how technology is used, you will easily understand that the Internet of Things is designed to completely destroy all freedom, independent thinking and creativity, and to turn all living and supposedly non-living things into property. In essence, to accept A.I. as your operating system is to accept being a slave.

The not so hidden agenda of the creators of A.I. and the Internet of Things is to control all of life and to manage all of life as property.

The ability to move freely, to reproduce, to think for yourself, and to enjoy privacy are intentionally suppressed in this movement to replace natural intelligence with artificial intelligence.

The human body is an advanced technology in itself. An antenna able to capture energy and information from anywhere in the multiverse or from the Earth without the use of any outside hardware or software.

The human body is an advanced piece of ancient technology, more advanced than anything science can produce today.

In all creation myths, there was a time when human beings were free and connected to all of nature. It would seem that we all lived in harmony with ourselves, one another, and with nature. And then occurred some event (a hostile takeover of the collective consciousness) which religions use to blame humanity as a fatal flaw in our own nature. This hostile takeover separated us from this unified and harmonious state.

Humanity has been enslaved for a very long time. Possibly hundreds of thousands of years. We now have the opportunity to remember our innate power and to free ourselves from oppression and control. 

As it happens, this separation from nature and from our own innate powers was not a flaw in our characters or in our human nature. It was an act of domination which has enslaved us for hundreds of thousands of years.

Artificial intelligence and the Internet of Things is an attempt to reduce all of life and creativity to commodities.

The fall from grace was in fact a fall into density, polarity, and separation. And from that enforced repression of the feminine aspect of ourselves and our ability to easily nurture, give, and receive, we were slowly and irremediably separated from our innate power to connect with all that is. Without this power, we came to understand ourselves as being inherently weak. And we gave our power away first to saviors from religions, then to patriarchy, domination of the mind over the wisdom of the heart, separation from nature, to relinquishing our consciousness to external products and gadgets produced by science and technology.

There is a clear reason why the feminine energies of creativity and receptivity have been suppressed from human cultures and religions on Earth. When we are creative, we are free. When we empty our minds, surrender our Ego and personal will to the greater flow of the Universe, we are an antenna that can receive direct information from the highest form of consciousness that is.

We are now experiencing the end of the era of slavery, domination, and separation from self and nature. That is, if we so choose. The technologies of artificial intelligence have been pushed hard onto us by those who have been the master controllers of human collective consciousness across the ages. By keeping human consciousness in the vibration of fear, our confidence in our own powers remains weak. Doubt, fear, anger, division, separation are all exaggerated in the technological prison which so many not only accept but embrace wholeheartedly.

Fear is a tool that is constantly used to manipulate human consciousness. To keep us separate from ourselves and to divide us from one another.

Artificial intelligence is not only not necessary; it is a trick designed to transform the human being into the most weakened and diminished state in history. To accept a chip into your body that allows you to connect to the Internet is to accept that you do not have the innate ability to connect to all wisdom in the Universe.

Before there were spoken and written languages, human beings, like the animals and plants, were able to communicate with all beings and energies every where in the multiverse. We are telepathic by nature. We were taught to suppress our own compassion and oneness and to treat living beings – trees, plants, animals, insects, soil, air, water, rocks and crystals, and even other human beings as if they were commodities and not sentient vehicles for energy and consciousness.

Human beings are naturally telepathic. We can communicate with trees, animals, with everything!

As humanity has reached the choice point in our era between freedom, unity, self-love and empowerment or total subjugation and domination by an external power source that holds the human consciousness in the artificial, non-creative, and stagnant arena of the mind…we each make the choice based on our level of consciousness.

Will I take back my power and remember who I am? Will I know that my heart contains everything I need to connect to the never-ending creative flow of life and trust in its wisdom? Or will I succumb to the fear propaganda and give into the devious and seductive rewards of artificial intelligence with the loss of autonomy and privacy that these technologies and the level of consciousness that produced them requires?

What does it mean to take back your power?

There is no right or wrong answer. Either choice will take you down a different path. To a new 5-D Earth built on a principle of balance, unity, harmony, intuition, creativity, and joy, or to a continuation of old 3-D Earth that will hold all of those who dwell there in a dependency on separation from self, others, and nature, and in which the reification of all beings into “thingness”, where the exploitation of all beings will continue to expand and where freedom will continue to shrink.

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Antiviral: Choosing what we spread


Hello dearest readers,

Currently, the world seems to be swept by an intentionally propagated fear of the corona virus. As most of you already probably know, the main purpose of global media is to spread fear and to keep humanity in a lower vibrational frequency so that the collective can be easily kept under control. Included in this program is the vaccination system which allows authorities to inject unknown substances, DNA, nano-particles, and technologies into large swathes of the human population.

Are you afraid of viruses, diseases, epidemics?

I do not believe that the main purpose of epidemics, many of which are started intentionally, is to kill a lot of people. Keeping people in fear is the major focus. And we do have a choice regarding our emotions as well as our experiences in our personal and collective realities. Everything is energy, including viruses, bacteria, fungi…and our thoughts and emotional reactions to information!

How aware are you of the quality of your thoughts and emotions in any given moment of the day?

How to respond to fear propaganda in a positive way? How can we each be an antivirus in our personal lives and behavioral choices?

My solution is a simple one:

  • Send love and gratitude for every experience that we have here on Earth, whether we perceive it as positive or negative.
  • Send love, light, and intentions of healing and unification to the energy of the virus (or whatever you choose to focus on that previously inspired a reaction of fear in your mental or emotional body). With our minds or consciousness, we can mutate a feared virus into an energy of beauty, healing, and joy. Our minds are extremely powerful.
  • Trust that you can create a life of joy, ease, freedom and perfect health for yourself and those you love. We are all powerful creators of realities. We choose to create the life we live by our personal vibration.

Where are you on the spectrum between fear and love?

On a very 3-D level, we can keep our vibrations high and our bodies healthy by using essential oils, such as oregano, thyme, rosemary, tea tree, lavender, myrrh, frankincense mixed with coconut oil, drinking teas or water with tinctures made from plants containing antimicrobial, antiviral, and antifungal properties, such as pao d’arco, olive leaf, dandelion, ginger, and others. Many plants possess antiviral properties. Ingesting these plants will cause viruses hidden within the body to surface as the plant works to prevent the virus from replicating in the cells.

Plants have healing properties that harmful bacteria or viruses cannot mutate to avoid, because plants are connected to the consciousness of the planet

We can raise our vibrational frequency by remaining in a state of mindfulness and gratitude, offering our talents in service to others and consciously setting the intention to share these talents and to increase unity, harmony, freedom, peace, and health on the planet on a daily basis.

When human beings reconnect to nature and remember that our consciousness is unlimited, connected to all that is, we will remember how powerful we truly are

When we sit in meditation and quiet our bodies and minds, we can connect to our higher self and ask to embody our highest expression and timelines available to us in our grounded lives/bodies here on Earth at this time. We can ask for guidance, opportunities to heal and to help, as well as the tools we need to accomplish our mission set before we birthed into these bodies here on Earth.

We all have the power to change life on Earth right now.

It is time to let go of all of the old thought programs and constructs that have been controlling humanity through fear for eons. We, as human beings, starseeds, lightworkers – we all have the power to change the world we live in right now. Simply by changing how we respond to all information. Coming from inside our minds or from the world that we perceive as outside of self. All is one, all is unity. We simply need to change the way we see, feel, hear, act.

Reacting with fear strengthens that which you fear

Life can be beautiful. Health is a state of mind. You decide whether you get sick or not. You decide whether you transmit illness, fear, doubt, judgment or love, friendship, kindness, health, and joy. Awareness is everything. When we are aware, we can choose consciously. It is time to wake up.

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The New Age and Positive Bias

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Hello dearest readers!

As we shift out of the Age of Pisces into the Age of Aquarius, there is a definite need to change our mindset from one of a negative bias, in which reality and human nature are defined by fear, survival of the physical body, separation from self and the spiritual realms as well as from nature, to a positive bias.

A positive bias means choosing to see and feel uplifting thoughts, to appreciate others and situations no matter how they immediately present

If you listen to your conversations with people on a daily basis, it may strike you how “negative” peoples’ evaluations of life experiences may seem. Traffic is horrible, the weather is bad, people are scary or evil. In separation, we are always constantly predicting disaster, even though we think we are simply discussing life as it is. Basically, life in duality has taught us that our fellow human beings as well as nature, including our own nature, are not to be trusted.

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Human beings have been conditioned for thousands of years to distrust their own intuition, and to give their power to create their own reality away to so-called experts

In the age of Pisces and in survival consciousness, science is the true and established religion, and the body seems to define our identity. We are limited in all ways, and the divine connection to all that is seems unreachable. We are conditioned to this day to give our power away to politicians, doctors, to a God or savior who is all-powerful and who is not intrinsically part of self.

We generally play out roles as victims, judges, persecutors, and martyrs. Our own well-being is more often than not defined by people and/or conditions outside of our self.

We live in a hyper masculine world that is ruled by suspicion of the feminine, logic, fear, greed, manipulation, control, polarity, and separation from nature.

Experiences in polarity, separation, and ego have been useful to humanity. They have taught us how to exercise our free will. How to choose to remember who we truly are, as powerful beings of light who chose to experience separation and limitation in order to grow and learn


As the new Age of Aquarius unfolds, and as human beings awaken from the dream of separation, we are now able to co-create a new collective and personal dream of interconnectedness, intuition, kindness, unity, unconditional love, reconnection to nature, telepathic communication, and unlimited creativity. We can choose to shift out of the old “negative” bias of fear, pain, and suffering and finally relax and take back our own power.

I speak a lot about personal responsibility in this blog. To be awake means to be empowered. And to be empowered means that each of us is fully responsible for what we create in the world. It means we need to be mindful of our thoughts, emotions, and intentions at all times. It means learning to let go of old programs as well as learning to love and forgive self and others. Knowing that everything and everyone is completely perfect as is…right now!

When you meet someone for the first time, try not to judge them, but to see them as the person you love the most in the world


A new outlook means shaping our reality in each moment. Choosing love over fear. Deciding to encourage and appreciate others, no matter what they do or how they treat us. Knowing that our energy shapes the entire experience of all of humanity, the plants, animals, and the planet herself is a huge responsibility. But it is also very exciting! Finally, we are remembering how powerful we are, and what that power entails.

In every “NOW” moment, we create our experience of reality. What does it feel like to live that moment as if it has never been lived before?

The true creative energy is receptivity. Receptivity is a truly feminine energy. The totality of the Universe or Multiverse, if you will, is pure feminine emptiness. A womb of creation. Pulsing with love and creative energy. Both the masculine and feminine are necessary for a unified and balanced experience of conscious life. When we remember how to be receptive, we can surrender our consciousness to higher aspects of wisdom and bring new knowledge into our worlds.

Artists, scientists, creators in all areas know how to use intuition to invent new ways of living and being


A positive bias means being loving and non-judgmental in each moment. Assuming that everything that happens is good and perfect, just as it is. That we are perfect right now, just as we are. That every situation embodies a silver lining. Our bias for gratitude causes life to flow with beauty and appreciation, and surrender to one’s higher aspect allows appropriate information to flow into our consciousness. Once we have surrendered our lives to guidance by our higher self, we can then allow our masculine side to step in to mold  the new images, information, and awareness into form that we can materialize into our world and share with others.

It takes time and concerted effort to heal from inter-generational trauma caused by separation consciousness

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We are now living in a powerful and chaotic time of transition. The fruits of the Starseeds and Lightworkers are beginning to become apparent, beginning to manifest in what we call “physical reality”. It is time to create in unity and to imagine New Earth from a positive bias based in love, compassion, and non-judgment.

It is our true nature to embody love. We simply have forgotten for a time that we are all connected. That we can innately communicate with all life, from the microscopic to the infinite. In remembering, we become powerful creators of realities once again. And we can relax, breathe, and be thankful.

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My Utopia: building a vision for New Earth

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Dearest readers,

As we personally and collectively raise our vibration to a higher frequency, the call to serve the highest good of everything and everyone becomes an obvious requirement. Unity or oneness as a state of consciousness means we each accept that we are all inextricably interconnected, emotionally, mentally, physically…on all levels, densities, and dimensions.

Calling up the highest timelines and accepting to embody our higher self as an incarnated human being on Earth is a noble and exciting goal. As we each awaken at our own pace, we also realize what we can co-create here on Earth.

New Earth is a state of consciousness

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In duality, most humans spend a lot of time criticizing the state of the world, fearing scary possibilities, looking for scapegoats to blame for their own lack of mastery of their thoughts, emotions, and intentions. Once we shift into unity, there is no one to blame but ourselves. We alone are responsible for the world or worlds that we create and experience.

We don’t need better elected officials or institutions to create New Earth. New Earth is what we each make of our lives and our choices in our daily lives. Tiny things pile up and have staggering consequences.

Small choices make a huge difference

Looking every person we meet squarely in the eye and sincerely asking them how they are makes a significant energetic difference in the world, rippling outward with vibrations of compassion and kindness.

Of course, we all want to create something significant, with visible ramifications.

Kindness is strength, not weakness

The changes I would like to see in the world are many.

I imagine a world where the latent talents of every child born on the planet are cherished and encouraged, and where parents and educators are excited to discover and nurture those talents as they emerge.

I imagine a world where businesses are democratic, in which every worker owns a share of the business and is actively involved in every day decision making.

Taking responsibility for our lives is key

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I imagine a world where everyone realizes that plants, animals, trees, insects, rocks, water, clouds have consciousness. A world where human beings remember that we are an integral part of nature. With this new awareness, humans show deep respect and reverence for all life and for the energetic bodies we now call inanimate matter.

I imagine a world where people take responsibility for their thoughts, emotions, and intentions and where they create consciously and mindfully in every moment. A world where people are patient, curious, kind, and helpful. A world where we can slow down and breathe, letting go of the worry of judgment by others. Where we can live at our own pace and wake up when are bodies are ready to awaken.

Everything that exists embodies consciousness

I imagine a world where all people are valued, and where all talents are equally important.

I imagine a world where there is no culture of lack, no poverty of thought process. Where the abundance of this world is shared without hoarding or greed, and where all resources are made equally available to all people.

Imagine a world without poverty

I imagine a world where people relate to one another without codependency or enabling, in which everyone is held fully responsible for their acts of creation. In this version of reality, children are taught to take full responsibility instead of being absolved or entitled to do as they please without regard for others or for their community.

I imagine a world that is full of beauty and life, where people and animals alike can drink water and eat food without fear of toxicity, and where we can live without fear of criminal behaviors, exploitation, and opportunism. The stress we experience in duality has become second nature to us, but it is not a prerequisite for humanity to live as a predator or prey to our fellow human beings. We can rise above duality, separation, and lack that characterizes the 3-D world.

Beauty heals stress


I imagine a world where we are all empowered to create with sensitivity and receptivity. A world where we listen to our own higher self as primary council and source of wisdom, without giving our power away to so-called experts. On New Earth, as I see it, there will be no hierarchy as we know it today, although there will be structure and an orderly and peaceful way of life.

It is up to each of us to imagine New Earth and to begin to live as if we are already there. Now is the only time there is to create the world in which we wish to live. Our hearts radiate the wisdom of the higher realms.  If we can quiet our minds and listen, our hearts will show us the way.

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Shifting realities: mastering the pattern


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Dearest readers,

As I navigate the ascension process, working my way back up from separation and survival consciousness (3-D) towards unity and compassion (5-D) and non-judgment (7-D), I often notice unwanted thoughts and emotions entering my realm of experience or reality. Sometimes it is something as silly as compulsively imagining cockroaches invading my bathroom. These experiences, if reacted to, adopted, or taken personally, can drop me back down to lower timelines or more angsty experiences of reality. As the saying goes: “What you resist, persists.”

Sometimes I have unwanted, compulsive fearful thoughts about traffic accidents or cockroaches invading my bathroom.

I believe that as individuals moving towards unity consciousness, we each have both the opportunity and the responsibility to help ourselves and to help the collective to release these old thought forms and emotions that were originally created either to help us to survive in a more primitive expression of consciousness, or which were created as a response to living in a terrifying world of separation from nature and from ourselves where everyone and anything could be an enemy.

I personally visualize the “All that Is” (what people commonly call God), as a beautiful geometric pattern that is constantly shifting and changing. Because the great consciousness of everything includes everyone and everything that exists, we are each part of that pattern. And, as such, we each have the opportunity to change the color and tone of the entire pattern, since we are all connected to one another and are an expression of the unity of all life. Just as a seed contains the entire pattern and potential of an adult tree, so does each particle of energy, every person, plant, animal, insect, rock, droplet of water, or grain of soil contain the entire pattern that is “God”. From the perspective of unity, everything is sacred, and nothing can be treated with less than the utmost respect, including ourselves.

For me, “God” is a geometric pattern, like an ever shifting mandala or a kaleidoscope, containing all of consciousness, all of the energy of everyone, everything, all that is.

It may seem as if the world (planetary and social) is in chaos. And indeed it is, on one level. I personally perceive this chaotic state as an opportunity for each of us to take back our creative powers and our ability to imagine, feel, and live from a higher perspective. The old timelines of powerlessness, suffering, and separation where people seek a savior or give their power away to either people or God that are perceived as more powerful than self are all falling away. The chaos is a prerequisite for change. We can easily pick up the pieces and create a beautiful and loving way of being here on Earth once again.

We are not creating something new, per se. We are beginning to remember what it was like to live from a unity perspective once again. Once we remember that we are part of a bigger, magnificent pattern, like a kaleidoscope or mandala, we also remember that we are never alone.

We are all powerful artists, creating realities for ourselves and for everyone else too.

Taking responsibility for “unwanted”, “negative” thoughts as well as impulses to control others, to hoard wealth, to bully or to feel as a victim, hopeless and small is not an easy thing to do. But it is simple. It takes persistence. Over and over again, each time these thoughts, feelings, and impulses arrive into our field of awareness, we can simply thank them for giving us the opportunity to experience life in 3-D and separation, and then release and transmute them back into pure light. Then we can focus our attention and intentions on creating what we truly would love to feel and experience in the present moment.

No one is coming to save us. We are in charge!

It takes practice. Shifting timelines helps everyone – humans, plants, animals, the planet. If you want to help change this collective experience of reality, you can do it in the privacy of your own home or backyard. No one even has to know that you are doing it. But it will help everyone, and the visible effects of these private practices will soon become visible thanks to all of our efforts.

Practice imagining what heaven on Earth looks and feels like.

We are living in a challenging and exciting time! We are all influential. Please do not despair. I know that many are taking their own lives, finding life on Earth at this time to be overwhelming. And it can be, if we allow ourselves to be influenced by narratives of destruction, pain, violence, and confusion to overtake our senses. Be strong! We are the ones who create the new realities. No one will come to save us. We are all powerful creators. All each of us needs to do is to reflect clearly on what we would like to experience, both personally and collectively, and what will benefit the highest good of everyone, everything, and all that is.

With love and support,


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The only way out is up


Dearest readers,

It’s become a common-place truism to say that a problem cannot be solved at the same level of consciousness at which it was created. It also seems obvious from the word “revolution”, that by rebelling against a situation or system that is causing pain, discomfort, or which has been observed to not work for the majority, we end up in the same place that we started.

Is time travel an illusion?


The German series, Dark, of which two seasons is now available on Netflix, underlines this circular nature of time and reality, where past, present, and future are intertwined and simultaneous. The symbol of the ourobouros, or the snake biting its tail, as well as the triquetra, derived from intersecting circles, similar to the vesica pisces, represents past, present, and future in a unified field.

What we call reality could be a simulation


Collapsing timelines

This multidimensional representation of our human experience of reality in which multiple timelines appear to be collapsing into one another, and that which was perceived to be separate can no longer remain encapsulated is becoming apparent in our current collective experiences of reality around the world. Everything that we were conditioned to believe as truth and reality no longer seems to hold water.

Are you awake yet?

The person who is awakening to this realization may feel fear, as if the solid foundation onto which they believed everything they hold dear is no longer stable or reliable. The person who knows that reality is simply a mental construct observes the events around him or her and builds peace and stability by mastering his or her thoughts, emotions, desires, and intentions.


The life force is our true identity

Spiritual teachings from all civilizations seem to hold a common belief that the only reality is that which is inside of each of us. That spark of life, of consciousness, is the foundation of everything that we seem to perceive on the outside.

From separation back to unity

As our current paradigm collapses in on itself and all of our institutions implode, we can choose to observe this process of deconstruction peacefully, knowing full well that to create something new, the old must go.

Unity: serving the highest good

To build something better, we must create from a state of consciousness in which everything we allow in our world must serve the highest good of everyone and all that exists.

Since energy is never lost but is simply transformed, there is grief only where there is attachment. Of course, we are all attached to people, places, animals, things, memories…but the less attachment we hold, the easier it is to let go. And we can grieve and let go eventually of those things and beings we once loved.

triquetra timeline

Wormholes and portals

The circle of time or evolution (rather than revolution) is a spiral. It circles up and down again. The thesis of the series Dark is that our world is locked into a circle that endlessly repeats itself over and over again in disparate timelines that overlap when portals or wormholes between these dimensions of time are opened. In the show, the time cycles each last 33 years, at which point the portals can be accessed.

The apocalypse: the end of one world and the integration of all timelines 

In this hellish repetition of an  interlocking past, present, and future, we blindly participate in a play that can only end badly, as we suffer the same wounds and betrayals over and over again. One aspect of the main character ends up co-creating an apocalyptic event to end this endless trap of suffering with the unknowing consent of all of those who are seeking resolution, love, peace, and reunion with those they love and have lost. When we extend the illusion of time to a helix, our experiences allow us to advance and regress, ad infinitum. Perhaps there is no way out, but I believe that life is all about experiences that the soul chooses to live.


The witness and the experiencer

By becoming more self-aware, the experiencer does not take the pain and suffering the same way as someone who identifies fully with the character he or she has taken on for a particular lifetime. By observing self and how we respond to our triggers, we can work on our self. I know that I am more than just this human person, Rebekah. I have chosen this role for this lifetime, and all of my experiences feel very real. That is why the game is so hard. Mastery is the real reason we are here, in this very elaborate game that is simulated by our collective consciousness (perhaps what we call God).

Mastery of self

Moving up in the game means not taking anything personally. Watching ourselves play the game – that is how we move up, and that is how we move beyond being triggered by social violence, political chaos, or by any situation or person that shames, blames, judges or otherwise seems to try to manipulate our state of consciousness.

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My entire existence, past, present, and future is inside of me

Being calm means no longer trying to control external circumstances or people. Mastery, like all truths, is a paradox. I am a master if I let go of all desire to control my life, and in doing so, I am able to remain peaceful in all situations…ultimately making me in full possession of the ability to create a life full of peace and joy. And what more could anyone want?

St Germain Self Mastery

Everything is fine as it is right now

The key is to stop judging self and others. To stop qualifying situations as good or bad. It’s not weak or passive to forgive, to let go, to observe, to accept everything as it is as being perfect.

Soul contracts

We all choose our parents and families and the challenges we come to experience here on Earth. They are all perfect, for us. It took me a long time to realize this, but when I finally did, I felt very empowered. I could then receive the gifts from my family, even though they had caused me a lot of pain and forced me into isolation from the family unit.

Empowerment and self-responsibility: the way to inner peace

The challenges other people face are not tragedies, and it is not our role to feel sorry for them or to help them out of these situations. The only thing each of us needs to do, if we wish to master our reality, is to look inward and to observe ourselves. To be kind at all times to self and to others.


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Soul contracts and “bad relationships”

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Dearest readers,

We have all been conditioned to feel as if we are either lucky or unlucky in love, but I personally believe that luck has nothing to do with how our relationships turn out. Nor, most likely, does love have much to do with what we call romantic encounters either!

What’s love got to do with it?

The reason I say that luck has nothing to do with our love life is because I believe that we make choices in the physical and non-physical realms. These choices determine how we experience reality in our physical or incarnated lifetimes here on Earth.  Every relationship is a mirror for our inner state and is a gift as such, because it can show us (if we accept it as a reflection) where we are on our personal path of self-growth and evolution.

Self love is key!

How many of us have learned to fully love and embrace ourselves? It is a commonplace truism to say that “we cannot love another if we don’t fully love ourselves”. But what does that really mean? If I constantly attract people into my life as romantic partners who are selfish, immature, narcissistic, who have problems with addiction, financial independence, controlling their temper, or any issue that might bring chaos or disrespect into a relationship, do I ask myself where I am lacking love and respect for myself in my own life?

What are soul contracts?

I believe that before we are born (decide to come to Earth or some other planet and live in a lower density physical vehicle that we call a body), our soul and its soul group and guides get together to create a life plan. The soul is immortal and has lived an uncountable number of lifetimes, just for the fun, suffering, and multitude of experiences that incarnations have to offer. We are not limited in our identity to our gender, race, appearance, sexual orientation, that our body offers in this single lifetime.

The soul group decides upon and seals a certain number of agreements that we choose to experience in this lifetime. There is still some free will involved, and how we respond to each encounter and situation will determine how our lifetime unfolds. Relationships are included in these soul contracts. These include our parents, siblings, relatives, coworkers, friends, and romantic partners and spouses.

What is a “bad” relationship?

In human terms, we don’t like to suffer. We want to be happy. Happiness generally means getting our way, from a human perspective. The ego always wants what it wants, and it does NOT want to suffer. The soul begs to differ. The soul does not judge anyone or anything. There is no such thing as a good or bad relationship from a soul’s perspective. Every experience, every relationship is an opportunity to love self and others more, and to gain more mastery over self – thoughts, emotions, intentions, and choice making abilities.

From our human point-of-view, a bad relationship is one in which we have been abandoned, or where our needs have not been met. It is a relationship where we feel alone, or where we are abused or feel afraid. Yet do we ever ask ourselves why we ever agreed to be with a person who makes us feel less than loved and respected?

The answer to these questions is simple. No one can make us do or experience anything that we do not agree to experience. If we are hurt or choose to live in fear or with abuse and disrespect, it is because we don’t yet love and respect self fully. And that’s OK. It’s a learning curve, and “bad” relationships are our best teachers.

Say thank-you and move on!

Once I realize that I create my own reality and that I am an empowered immortal being of light, any relationship on the human plane takes on a different aspect. Now that I know I am a sovereign creator and artist of my own reality at any given moment, I constantly remind myself how amazing it is to be alive. I am so grateful for all experiences, and I am learning constantly how to be thankful when unpleasant people, triggering experiences, and frustration come along.

This isn’t easy for any of us, but it wasn’t meant to be easy!

Once the realization seeps deep down into the fabric of our being, we finally wake up and think, “Wow! I can actually experience anything I want, if only I can truly love and respect myself and all that is!”

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Be it ’til you see it: thoughts on the process of manifestation


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Hello dearest readers,

Over the years, anyone in mainstream culture or those you are interested in things of the spirit can only be aware of the attention given to the law of attraction. Fake it ’til you make it is a truism that is equally common. If you pretend you already are or have what you want, then this state of awareness will eventually trickle down into your lower frequency physical reality. Basically, thoughts and emotions are forms of energy which exist on a certain plane, and the so-called physical plane is simply a more dense form or mirror of the emotional, mental, and spiritual planes.

When Nicolas Tesla famously declared that everything is energy, frequency, and vibration, he obviously understood the true nature of reality. Everything that ever was, is, or will be coexists right now in energetic form. There is no separation of anything. Nothing is ever lost or gained.

Yet the experiences of limitation we choose to live out here on Earth are so realistic! The game of life and the game of being human are expressions of limitation in density that our soul or Higher Aspect chooses to experience in order to provide opportunities for mastery of thoughts, emotions, choices, and intentions while living under duress.

Being human is a paradoxical situation. We are all powerful creators of realities living in a very narrow state of expression. It is as if we have amnesia and must try to remember what we once knew and lived with ease. Manifestation of our thoughts, desires, and dreams is second nature to us in the higher planes. But here on Earth, in the lower densities, it becomes difficult. We struggle, we resist our circumstances, we fear outcomes and worry that we won’t be able to survive and protect our physical bodies and possessions. The more we struggle and worry, the more challenging our circumstances or experiences become.

Which is why being human is such a gift. Because it is so challenging, and because in the lower densities taking care of a physical body and a family demand so much of us.

And so, in the name of remembering who I really am – a soul or fragment of the source creator – I declare that I will be what I want to experience until that energy signature of joy, abundance, peace, and well-being translates into the mirror of the physical plane.

There is a delay between thought, emotion, and manifestation in the physical plane because of the variation in frequencies between thought, emotion, intention, and that of our physical bodies and their surroundings. The whole point of the ascension process is to recalibrate our physical bodies and to bring them up to the same vibrational level as that of our soul expression. The process of purging conditioned thoughts, belief systems, emotional trauma that is seated in the body (mental, physical, and emotional as well as in the energetic or light body – toroidal field that surrounds every human being) is a long and challenging one.

Which is why manifestation of our thoughts, desires, and intentions is not as easy as it seems it should be. To experience joy, you have to be joyful and truly feel joyful. You can’t fake that, and faking joy will not bring a true experience of joy into your life. The feelings that accompany abundance, ease, joy, patience, calm or whatever we wish to embody must be actually felt in order for the results to manifest in the so-called physical world. The light body, which is an extension of our chakra system and DNA, is the interface between our material self and all of the non-physical realms.

We are all constantly creating our reality, manifesting perfectly the results that match the frequencies of our thoughts, emotions, beliefs, and the level of self-love we currently feel and express. In this, we are all perfectly powerful.

However, if you or I does not like or enjoy the reality we have created, then we have the ability to shift to a different reality by examining and changing the thoughts, beliefs, feelings, and intentions we are holding to a new set that is more harmoniously aligned with that which we would prefer to experience.

From my perspective, this is the hardest part. If I wish to be an entrepreneur and not have a conventional job anymore, then I need to examine what is holding me back from realizing this dream. Am I afraid of not making enough money or the lack of stability or security that may ensue from being my own boss? Do I lack self-love or self-worth and believe that I don’t deserve to be successful? There are so many unconscious thoughts and beliefs as well as emotions that need to be examined carefully and of which I need to be aware if I wish to shift my experience of reality.

I know I am completely responsible for my experiences of reality in this dimension, and I own that. There are things about my life that I don’t really like right now. I want to work from home full-time as an artist, so that I can be present for my dog and do the work I love to do.  I am working on feeling the joy and security that abundance gained from enjoyable creative work would bring. I am also working on self-confidence, needed to promote my work and to command the commission fees I need in order to pay my bills. There are practical as well as spiritual aspects to manifestation. The emotional aspects and unconscious beliefs and conditioned thought patterns are not often broached in pop culture talks and lectures about the law of attraction.

Everything in life is about mastery. Mastery of our thoughts, emotions, desires, choices, intentions. What we achieve in this world is illusory. The true goal is to be. Simply to be. Pure of heart. Peaceful. Joyful and enjoying each experience that comes our way with gratitude and non-judgment. It’s not easy. It’s a process that is meaningful and which brings its own rewards.

We live in a very goal-oriented culture in the United States. There is a lot of emphasis put on status and on achievement, as well as on doing rather than being.  A friend of mine from my book club told me the other day that she is now focusing more on being. Her husband of at least 50 years is dying of a rare form of dementia. He is not able to speak or communicate. Yet all of the people in the home where he was staying were moved to tears and expressed so much love for him when he had to move out to go to hospice. His energy of peace, gentleness, and love was so pervasive despite his inability to move, communicate, or do anything. This is what I am talking about.

So be love until you see love mirrored in your life experiences. What more could any of us want?


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The End of the Transhumanist Agenda: How we choose


Dearest readers,

I have taken a break from blogging for a while, though ideas for posts keep coming to me. As a lightworker/starseed, the awakening and ascension process for humanity and the planet preoccupies a lot of my waking and probably my sleeping life as well.

At this point in our collective experience of 3-D life on Earth, I believe that humanity has reached a very clear choice point. Lightworkers have been expressing this state of affairs for some time, but now it is out in the open. A variety of films and TV shows present our reality as multi-dimensional and illusory, and the obvious (to some of us) presence of sentient and advanced life forms throughout the universe or multiverse are also being introduced to the public at large. The choice is this: Do we stay on the 3-D track of duality, ego, fear, mind control, materialism, and artificial intelligence and allow ourselves to become part of the Transhumanist agenda and the Internet of Things, or do we choose to leap to a higher level of consciousness characterized by unity, creativity love, harmony, expansiveness, inclusiveness, personal freedom, and flow?

The corporations who run the hallucination that we currently mostly accept as the only reality have very carefully been programming their human subjects to embrace A.I. in all of its forms. The addiction to cellphones, social media programming, body shaming, artificial foods and medications, and all of the aspects of destructive behaviors created by the current system are intentional. The goal is to keep all human beings separate from one another and disconnected from inner lives and our innate ability to connect to the consciousness of all things and all beings anywhere in the Universe. For example, by instilling a hatred of the natural human body through constant judgment, and by encouraging people to change their bodies and compare their bodies to those modeled on various media, the eventual segue (as seen in shows such as Black Mirror on Netflix) is that people are being conditioned to accept to live in very realistic virtual bodies and virtual relationships on technological platforms.


The truth is, while the Internet is a nifty tool, it is also ultimately unnecessary once our DNA awakens and we shift out of duality. As are all of the other technological devices that were created to replace the abilities with which all human beings are born. The ascension process is one of remembering and awakening to these innate abilities. Love and the expansion of our natural energy fields through higher vibrational thoughts, feelings, and intentions strengthens our field and shields us from EMFs, toxic “foods”, chemicals, thoughts, programming, etc.

Which is why the “news” or mind control programming works so hard to keep people in fear. Being in a state of fear or lower consciousness makes us very vulnerable to psychic attack, disease, and manipulation. The so-called terrorist attacks, wars, reports of criminal behavior, racism, use of privilege and deprivation are all very intentional. People who are divided against one another cannot unite in higher consciousness. By being constantly distracted by media and cellphones, we not only separate from other humans, but we are also constantly distracted from our own Higher Self or intuitive connection to the divine spark that is in each of us. We are never victims; we all have choices to make – whether consciously or unconsciously.

We are living in a very special and exciting time. All experiences are valuable, and not one is better or more appropriate than another. We each make the best choice for ourselves. In higher consciousness, unlike duality, there is no good or evil, light or dark. There is no judgment. Only acceptance. For in unity or “christed” (meaning unity) consciousness, as in the yin-yang symbol, dark and light are two sides to the same unified creation. It will be a great relief for those of us who finally make it through the long purging process to the other side of duality.

Leaving behind all of the belief systems and conditioning which have informed our limited human experiences here on Earth is indeed a painful process involving much dedication, strength, and courage. There are many brave souls on Earth at this time. We are all here, each in our own way, to support the planet, and all of her creatures.

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Healing from image addiction

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Dearest readers,

As we move deeper into the ascension process, awakening from thousands of years of trauma, mind control, psychic attacks, and inter-generational familial and institutional emotional, mental, and physical abuse and neglect, it is time to take stock.

All human beings across the planet are deeply wounded on multiple levels and dimensions. It is time to heal those wounds. The conditioning of the human being to live in constant fear, hatred of self and others, and in a system of separation where we are taught to constantly judge self and others is coming to an end. But abuse and inter-generational trauma don’t just disappear.


On social media, so many people – men, women, and children, pretend to live “happy” lives. Creating images of perfection, of beauty, of happiness that are intended to impress others. Displaying designer bodies, homes, clothes, hair, make-up. Trying to impress others with money, power, success. What I see are deep wounds, insecurity, pain, and fear of abandonment. Lack of self-love and the inability to see that our power lies within. The conditioned human being sees perfection outside of the natural self. So many young women run after relationships with inappropriate partners who have nothing to offer, neglecting their own children and perpetuating the cycle of abuse, neglect, and lack.

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I have written many times on this blog about codependency, which is the norm of relationship in a dysfunctional, dualistic world where everyone is polarized. Rising to a higher level of consciousness means taking responsibility for self and for our own healing. Unity consciousness means that everything and everyone are equally important, and there is no longer any judgment because perfection is innate and is not something to be acquired, worked for, or given by someone else. In unity consciousness, we no longer give away our power to authority figures, to romantic partners, to doctors or healers, or to religious leaders. No one is higher than self, and no one else is more or less important than self. In unity, there is harmony. No one need get offended by any comment, and there is no need to be “liked” or “followed” by anyone as we express our inner truths.


Many people still do not realize that humanity has been and is still enslaved to a power that uses sophisticated technologies to track our every move, to control our thoughts and our emotions. Negative, self-defeating thoughts as well as violent, aggressive thoughts are planted intentionally in our consciousness that we may react to them and cause more harm and fear in the world. Our water, soil, food supplies have been purposefully contaminated to poison our bodies and our minds. We are surrounded by electromagnetic frequencies which interrupt our connection to the Earth and to the divine. Every effort has been made to disempower us and to disconnect us from our true selves. The awakening is a process of remembering who we truly are and how powerful we are.


These thousands of years, perhaps millions of years, of slavery, abuse, torture, and emotional manipulation have deeply scarred the human psyche. Today, we suffer from physical ailments as well as mental and emotional disease. We are weakened and exhausted from the constant stress of living in separation, poverty, lack of emotional support, lack of love, and lack of a healthy environment. It is very distressing to think that many still believe that this is the only reality, clinging to this dysfunctional artificial system of torture.

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It is up to each of us to wake up and to take charge of our own healing and our own lives, and to imagine New Earth – the sort of place and reality in which we want to live, raise our children, and thrive. Human consciousness is so extremely powerful, yet we are very emotionally sensitive beings. Taking charge of our emotions and healing our emotional bodies, I believe, is key to help humanity move out of the bondage of the lower realms and its overlords. Beautiful, radiant jewels of light are the essence of our true being. We are the energy of love, but we have been taught to survive in darkness, never seeing our own light. Taught to reach for stars that are artificial and that would burn us if we could ever reach the image of perfection that is dangled before us, while we crash and burn behind the scenes, suffering from addictions, eating disorders, bullying and self-harming, neglect and abuse of those whom we should love and cherish.

Self-love is the key to recovery. Turn off TVs, computers, hand-held devices. Go into nature and sit quietly. Remember who you are. You are beautiful. You are powerful. You are a creator of any reality in which you want to live. It’s time to thrive.




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Women and self-love

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Dearest readers,

Why is it so easy to love a dog, a cat, a flower, even a dress, a tree but so hard to love yourself? Why are humans so hard to love?

Women always talk about looking for love, but love is not something that exists outside of self. The nature of reality is love, because love is creative energy. When we give our power away, we also give away our power to create. When we go looking for love outside of ourselves, we give away our ability to love self and others in an authentic way.


So it comes back to one simple fact. Almost all human beings, whether or not it is conscious or admitted, think that there is something missing from their lives and from their reality. That happiness is always around the corner but not present with them in each moment.

It is by changing this perception of reality and by realizing that we actually create our experience of reality with every breath, every thought, every emotion that we feel that shifts our ability to be happy and to love and accept our self as we are right now.

Women spend fortunes on potions, creams, make-up, clothes, plastic surgery in order to “improve” on the way they look and to improve their prospects to attract “love” and to preserve their youth. All of this is a waste of resources and energy.

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When we love ourselves, we look radiant. When we are in love with self (not in a narcissistic way, but in a compassionate way), we give thanks for the opportunity to be on Earth exactly as we are, right now. I regularly thank the cells in my body, even the water in my body, and for the opportunity to be on Earth at this special time in human history – as we shift from duality and a lower level of consciousness based on ego and separation into a reality based on unity, love of self and others, respect, peace, balance, harmony, and joy.

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Women spend so much time and energy speculating about relationships and why and how a love interest behaves the way they do. If we love ourselves and honor and respect our own boundaries as well as those of others, we clearly discern whether or not we are being treated as we deserve to be treated. What does it feel like to be loved and respected? The answer is simple. It feels easy and it feels good. There is no conflict, no duality, no wondering as to whether or not he or she will or should call or treat us to this or that. When we give ourselves what we need to be happy, and when we set clear boundaries, everything else is icing on the cake, and other people automatically earn the right to be themselves too.

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Self-love and self-care are so important in the times in which we are living. It is challenging to heal from the post-traumatic stress caused by millennia of harsh conditioning, imposed negativity, isolation, and abuse. But it is up to us, both women and men, to learn to love and honor ourselves, to open our hearts, and to take full responsibility for our lives.

Animals and plants are easy to love because they have no conditions. They are always living in full alignment with their nature. They don’t pretend, and they don’t hold back. Human beings, conversely, are always trying to use one another, cheat one another, manipulate and control one another. We should model ourselves after the simplicity and  honesty of plants and animals. In the New World that is coming, and it will arrive more quickly if we create it more intentionally, simplicity and honesty will prime over manipulation, control, power, and pretense. It is time to choose the world in which we want to live. It is time to create that world, and it is time to heal ourselves.

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On New Earth, we won’t need make-up, and there won’t be hookups. Men and women will be free to be themselves, and there won’t be a need to create drama in relationships. The time for honesty with self and others is here, and it is time to heal ourselves from the trauma of the past. No one is responsible for our pain, and it is time to give thanks for all of the experiences over many lifetimes which have challenged us and pushed our limits farther than we thought we could manage or survive. It is time to unpack all of these experiences and the laws, rules, restrictions, the pain, the suffering, the regret, the shame, the judgment of self and others and to re-examine what it all means. It is time to open our hearts and our emotional bodies as well as our mental bodies and to sort out all of the thoughts and experiences and see how they make us feel. It is time to live in our bodies and to take our bodies seriously by carefully listening to each message from every cell. It is time to return to truth and to the beauty of truth.

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Ladies, we are all beautiful, and we each chose the body that was perfect for the lifetime we are living now. We chose it in every detail before deciding to be born into this body. We chose our families too, in all of their dysfunctional splendor. And none of these aspects are handicaps in any way. We chose to come to Earth to live specific experiences and to learn to love self and others. We came to Earth to bring others the gift of our unique self and talents. Let’s try to use our power to create beauty, abundance, peace, prosperity, and joy. Being human is complex, but it is also simple.


We are each a universe, and we are made out of love – the ultimate creative energy. Let’s use that energy to build something wonderful!

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Remedies for loneliness: the importance of sharing and intimacy

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Dearest readers,

An unforeseen and preventable tragedy recently occurred in my work place. One of my younger coworkers, M. (aged 27) took his own life during the holiday break. He was a quiet young man. Respectful, thoughtful, intelligent. A model employee who was always on time and who played by the rules. His college major was psychology. He had married in 2018 and on the surface, appeared to have a well-ordered and happy life. He had once shared with me that he suffered from extreme insomnia and had never found a remedy that worked for him. His father, who also works for our same company, is a man of conservative views, and I recently found out that the family are Seventh Day Adventists and that the children were both  home schooled.


M. liked cosplay, trap music, and Japanese culture. He had a gentle energy about him, and I always felt that he was different from his family, even though I didn’t objectively know much about them or about him. I can always tell if someone is a starseed, and I knew that M. was, though he was completely unaware of the fact, I am certain. Many of our coworkers as well as myself suspected that M. was gay. A people pleaser, he most likely wanted to be a good son and make his family proud. Was the pressure so intense that he suppressed this part of himself, marrying and trying to lead a “normal” life so as not to disappoint those who raised him? We can’t know, and all we can do is speculate.


However, my reflections on the premature loss of M. from this world and from my workplace (he sat directly across from me), have lead me to a few conclusions.

All of us, as human beings, want to be loved, seen, acknowledged, accepted and celebrated for who we truly are. Most of us are concealing parts of ourselves or pretending to be other than who we are. Perhaps because we feel we are not sufficiently lovable if we are true to our authentic urges and to our original divine template. Every human being on the Earth has been conditioned to adapt to family and cultural values, which means that all of us from early childhood onward, have been forced to repress great chunks of our being, of our deepest urges, desires, emotions and thoughts, burying them deep in our psyches. Shame and conformity play a huge role in social organization and values throughout all of our society’s institutions: schools, religions, government, family, etc.

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For every aspect and fragment of self that we repress, we lose energy, vitality, and our lives and communities suffer for this loss…whether or not we are aware of this tragic suppression. When we examine our families, cities, our human communities, we see crime, poverty, duality, racism, illness, depression, anxiety, and people not using their innate creative abilities to bring about the highest outcomes of abundance, well-being, peace, and prosperity for self and others. The truth is that the outer world is a mere reflection of what goes on inside of our hearts and minds. If we learn to heal our own lives, the collective experience of humanity will automatically improve and become more loving, open, and compassionate.

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In order to heal from all of this suppression, separation, loneliness, polarization, we must return to authenticity and take full responsibility for our own lives and happiness. No one else has the power to make us happy. We each have everything it takes to be whole, to be loved. We are love by nature, and every human being is a powerful creator of realities. We are each the artists and creators of our own lives, happy or unhappy. We choose the life we want by looking inward, by examining each of our thoughts, emotions, integrating, examining what is right and what feels good and discarding what is out of alignment and what feels bad. This is a long and complex process. We can help one another by being more open about our own healing process. As we return to oneness from duality and separation, we end loneliness and despair by being brave enough to share with others.


To be authentic and whole, we must each choose to learn to be honest and wholehearted. All of the energies that have been suppressed for thousands of years have been rising to the surface in our individual and collective lives to be healed. It is time for the global human community to awaken and to take responsibility for our reality, personal and collective. To take responsibility, we must each be aware of who we are and what we are carrying.

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Once we are aware of all of the suppressed energies and desires, we must learn to integrate them into our conscious personalities and lives. We must give up the images that we create to impress one another and learn to be human once again. I always give thanks for the experiences of pain, suppression, duality, negative thoughts and emotions before energetically transforming their energies into conscious light energy and accepting the new energy and healing into my soul.


It is difficult to be human. But once we begin to share our troubles, experiences, hardships, challenges with others, we realize that we are not alone. Everyone has challenges in their lives, and our lives are all inter-connected. The flow and grace of the life force, and the intelligence of spirit always puts us within reach of people whose experiences are calibrated to our own, to books, videos, content which is ready, if we so choose, to share the information and emotional support we need to grow and integrate the parts of ourselves we have been suppressing.

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By sharing and by accepting our own vulnerability, we can recognize our own humanity and that of others. By seeing how hard it is to be human, we can learn to stop judging and envying other people for the lives and abundance they seem to enjoy on the surface and begin to create real intimacy with other human beings. Loneliness ends where the courage to be openly vulnerable begins.


The fake joy and prosperity that abounds in images on the Internet and social media is just that: images. People create images because in a world of ego and duality, everything is about power, control, and manipulation. Image or persona is a fake shield that people create and parade to show that they are strong and impenetrable, when beneath this shield, the façade reveals a vulnerable and frightened child who has given away so much of his or her personal power and original authenticity.

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In reality, we are always whole and perfect, but we come to Earth to experience what it is to be human. It is a glorious and extremely difficult choice. We choose to live a small portion of our experiences as limited human beings, and this is a powerful choice, because it is so very difficult to be deprived of full awareness of how beautiful and powerful we are as creator beings. We come to Earth where we experience victimization, solitude, pain, disease, longing, war, imprisonment, injustice, hardships of all kinds. But also beauty, friendship, love, generosity, elation, art, music, and the magnificence of nature.

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I believe that no matter what each of us is going through, we are more powerful when we are truly honest with ourselves and when we share with one another in a completely open and authentic way. It is not always easy to share and to be open, because many people are locked down into their solitude. The best way, in my opinion, is not to ask another person what they are going through, but to use your own intuition and share something personal about yourself. You don’t know how this gift will affect another person, but it just might save their life and help them to look at their own life and gifts in a new way.

At work, at school, somewhere in your community or your family, you have been placed where you are for a reason. You have the wisdom, the experience, and the power to help and heal yourself and others just by being yourself and by sharing who you are. We are each a gift, and gifts must be shared to unlock their full potential.

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Triggered: Healing codependency through the ascension process


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Dearest readers,

Do you feel like the number of times that you are emotionally triggered has increased over the last few years, months, even days? If you do, you are not alone.

The ascension process is a gradual awakening of the human being, and a transition or healing process as well, taking us from a polarized state of duality to a more unified way of thinking, feeling, being, and doing. To experience unity consciousness, we must integrate the bits and pieces of ourselves and of our power that we have given away to others through victim consciousness and the myriad ways that the duality system has caused us to suffer and be cut off from our Higher Self as well as from other people and beings.


Every time I am triggered, I have to remind myself that the person or situation causing me to feel angry, upset, manipulated, cheated, hurt, or sad is an opportunity to get to know myself better and to take more responsibility for my own life. When I start to understand that this person or situation is not responsible for my personal unhappiness in that given moment and when I start to see myself and my role in that situation more clearly, I can integrate that new information and I become more mature and more able to face life confidently and with more love for myself and for others simultaneously.

Duality always presents an either/or outcome for every relationship, situation, and experience. It is either a good or bad experience. A person is good or bad. We are always judging self and others without even realizing it because we have been conditioned from a very young age to do so, and this conditioning is constantly reinforced by family, school, work, society, entertainment, etc. Codependency is a system of relationship in which we are never truly sovereign beings. We are never responsible for our own pain or failure, and we either are trained to blame others for our suffering or to hold it in and punish ourselves, playing the martyr.

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Unity consciousness and the ascension process give us a way out and above all, a way up. Higher consciousness and thinking mean that we no longer have to spin in circles, endlessly repeating the same experiences with different people that all have the same outcomes. Why do so many marriages end in divorce? Why is there so much violence in our societies? Why so much domestic violence, bullying, suicide, child abuse, incest, theft, manipulation, drug and alcohol abuse?

All of these behaviors are symptoms of duality and codependency. Where there is shame and judgment from birth onwards, we all are made to feel as if we are not whole and perfect as we are, innately. By being trained to seek love, perfection, and completion from outside of self from a very young age, we also learn to punish and judge self and others constantly and mercilessly. This process of auto-sado-mascochism and violence towards others can be healed by shifting to a higher level of consciousness.

Because we all carry so many wounds from self, family, society, and from our ancestors and lifetimes on other dimensions and timelines, there is a lot to heal and integrate. And we are living in a time of healing and revelation of all that has been suppressed. This is why everything appears so chaotic. There is an endless supply of triggers for all of us to “use” for our own benefit, and for the greater good of everyone and all that exists.

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As corruption and abuse is revealed on all levels of society and government, and where polarity seems to be exacerbated, we are all given much food for thought. All that has been hidden for so long is now coming to the surface to be integrated and rethought. We now are able to see how dark and distorted the world we have been given as our collective reality truly is, and we have the opportunity to see how powerful we are to change that collective experience. We are not victims, though we have been trained to think that way for eons. All human beings possess the ability to create whatever we can imagine.

Since we are trained to expect the worst of life, this is what we experience. Now we can change this and begin to love and appreciate ourselves. The nature of reality is extremely pliable. Our minds and hearts are the matter and crux of our personal and collective experiences of life. Once we shift our inner life perspective and start to focus on love of self and others, all while taking full responsibility for our thoughts, feelings, choices, actions, the “outer” reality will begin to quickly shift for all of us.

Codependency is a system of relationship that was artificially created to keep humanity in constant pain, confusion, and discomfort. It doesn’t have to be that way. Welcome the triggers. They are opportunities to shift from darkness and pain into ease and happiness. It is a process, and it takes a lot of work. It doesn’t happen overnight, the way people who spout off about the Law of Attraction seem to indicate. Humanity has been enslaved for thousands of years. All of us. Healing from this simply takes time, focused attention, effort, dedication, and hope.

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I’ll share a recent personal example of a pretty powerful trigger I experienced a few days ago. A coworker has been asking for financial contributions for her daughter, who is about to take a four day trip to NYC with her band class for a performance at Carnegie Hall. She is a single parent, but she does receive child support, and she has multiple streams of income. She has known about this trip for quite some time. The total cost of the trip is $1500. I am also a single parent, and I don’t receive any child support and have no other source of income other than my job. My son is in college overseas, and I have a lot of expenses for travel, insurance, etc. associated with supporting him.

I felt really uncomfortable when my coworker approached me and others, asking for money because I try so hard to be organized, independent, and responsible. I also know that my coworker gives a lot of money to charitable organizations and to her church. I found myself trying to judge her for her poor financial management and for her brazen requests for funds. Then I realized I needed to look within and learn what was causing these feelings of being triggered and upset.

I realized that within the codependent families I know (my own ) and those of friends, that we each play a different role within the codependent family system. One person is the responsible one, possibly the scapegoat. The person who can take care of him or herself and who never gets any help. The person who can be dumped on and who should carry the weight of the shadow for the whole family. Then there is the “poor me” victim and baby who never grows up and always is helpless and needs to be taken care of, long after they are physically mature adults. There are martyrs, victims, bullies, scapegoats in every codependent family.

As a middle child, I happened to be the scapegoat/responsible one. Everyone hated me so they didn’t have to hate themselves. And I never got help or helped when I needed it. So it is logical that this trigger should come up. A helpless person (who is an adult and who is not “really” helpless) asking the responsible one to take responsibility for her child’s trip because she is too disorganized to manage her finances properly!!!


As I turned the situation around and around in my head and heart, I realized that it was the residues of my own codependent upbringing that were coming up to be healed and resolved. I had told my coworker that I wouldn’t contribute to her fund. But more importantly, I realized that her issues are her own to heal, and that mine are my own. I don’t need to judge her and her financial management skills (or lack thereof). She will heal from her codependency when she is good and ready. Sometimes it’s OK to ask for help. And no, I’m not responsible for raising her kid. But I don’t need to feel angry or upset about it, though the trigger brought up the pain and indignation so I could feel it and remember how upsetting it is to be made to feel as though you are the one responsible for everyone else’s pain and discomfort. I know in my mind, and I have known for a long time, that this is not true. But to actually be at peace in one’s mind, body, heart all at the same time…that is true healing. When that trigger can come up again and I just feel peaceful inside…then I will know that I am healed in that area.

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These triggers that are coming up all over the place produce very challenging emotions and thoughts. I consider them to be gifts, and I hope that humanity will take these countless opportunities to heal ourselves and to heal our world. We are one family, and we are all perfect, as is. It is hard to be human, but it’s getting easier.

Welcome to New Earth, fellow human being. I wish you the very best on your journey, and I hope I can support you through my words of encouragement, understanding, and explorations of reality.

Ascension and Descension: the fall and the comeback



Dearest readers,

I find the story of Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden extremely fascinating. In fact, I believe that this story contains the seeds of the current collective experience of humanity. The fall of humanity and the conscious choice of humanity to experience separation from oneness, God, or unity and to spiral downwards into an experience of ego, pain, separation, control, and lack instigated by a snake with feet or reptilian creature is a very interesting state of affairs.

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In her children’s book series The Time Quintet, Madeleine L’Engle explores the nature of existence, quantum physics, and the true (hidden) story of human history. Often, her explorations draw references from Old Testament Bible tales. In the fourth book in the series, Many Waters, the most pragmatic and least metaphysical of the Murray family members twin brothers Sandy and Dennys travel back in time to what seems to be a Biblical era. In this time-space, angels, unicorns, and the seductive nephilim, which are extra-dimensional beings who can shape-shift but who have cut their connections with Source, all co-exist and share interpersonal relationships, including marriage with humans. Throughout the narrative, human beings are still connected to some degree to their innate powers and intuitive abilities, as they are still able to see and interact with higher dimensional beings.


I believe that the fallen angels or Nephilim, which some describe as giants and others as extraterrestrial beings, are somehow related to the reptilian beings who came to Earth. The “Fall” of humanity and disconnection of our consciousness from our initial place of unity with our Source Creator and with all that is, is recounted in the story of the Garden of Eden.

Today, while musing on this subject, I was guided to a video containing a live channeled message called The 9th Dimensional Lemurian Collective – Aspects of the Reptilian Agenda.

This message is fascinating and extremely relevant to the subject regarding the Fall and sheds much insight on the subject. It is a complex message about how and when a certain group of reptilian extraterrestrial beings came to the planetary being we call Earth, and how they “hijacked” human consciousness in order to resume their own ascension process. It is explained that human beings are naturally connected to our Source Creator, to the consciousness of the planet, and to the consciousness and cycles of our Sun.

We were living completely in unity and synchronized with the energies on our planet, with her plants and creatures, and with her consciousness until this “invading” force entered the scene. Thus the snake and the temptation at the Tree of Knowledge.

The fact that the Garden of Eden story contains a scene of temptation is also interesting. It means that we somehow were tricked into relinquishing our unity consciousness in exchange for a different experience, which would be the experience of separation from God and from our own innate connections to the consciousness of the planet, to experiences of pain and lack – such as painful childbirth and needing to work to make a living. Were we tricked, or did we make a choice? Much is made of the female being tempted, in an effort to demonize and blame the woman for the Fall.


The channeled message in the video does not reference the story of Adam and Eve, but she does explain that the reptilian beings needed to use human energy and consciousness for their own purposes. Not because they wanted to hurt us, but simply because they could not live on our planet without using our consciousness. And for whatever reason, they could not pursue their own ascension process on their home planet.


Like human beings, reptilian beings are diverse. Some are more evolved than others, spiritually-speaking. Intuitively, I have long felt that human beings are by nature kind, generous, and sensitive beings. Like the blue-skinned inhabitants of the film Avatar, I feel that we were once connected to Nature and able to connect to the consciousness of all creatures. The human beings who are “asleep” or in a low frequency state, are acting through the hijacked reptilian consciousness program which allows those who run the program to use our innate abilities, which are part of our DNA, to be creators of realities upon our planet.


Because more and more human beings are awakening and remembering what our true nature is, where we come from, and what our innate abilities are as creator beings connected to the consciousness of the planet and to the multiverse, it is becoming more difficult for the hijackers of our consciousness to keep the program running. Will the reptilians and their hybrids’ ability to keep using human consciousness for their own purposes come to an end? Will reptilians and human beings be able to both ascend on their own timelines? These eventualities remain to be seen.

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Ascension and descension are spiral staircases in the loops of time-space. We can choose to go up and down these DNA-like ladders at any time, as our frequencies shift and flow with our thoughts and our emotions. If we choose as individuals and as a collective to shift to higher frequencies back to unity consciousness, we will automatically consider our reptilian “hijackers” to be our brothers and sisters in the cosmic family. In oneness, there are no enemies. There are just diverse experiences from which we grow and learn.

We could see this as a form of Stockholm Syndrome, but perhaps instead of falling in love with our captors, we could see it as falling in love with our true selves once again. And our true selves are in unity consciousness. With the Law of One guiding us, we realize that no one and nothing is separate from us or from anyone else. The true organic matrix is one in which the pattern includes all and excludes no one.

For additional information on these subjects, here are two very interesting videos with contrasting points of view on the artificial intelligence/alien agenda:


Solar Logos: Resurrecting the Solar Stargate System, Paliadorian Diamond Sun Races, and Disclosure

Re-introduction to the Reptilians



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Beyond the shadow of doubt: transformation of beliefs


Dearest readers,

Doubt is an integral part of the human experience. When we choose to incarnate on Earth, we choose separation from our true identity, which is love, unity, peace, and joy. We choose victimhood, or else we choose to be tyrants. We come to Earth to experience pain, fear, lack, and duality. Why in the world would anyone want to come to Earth, in spite of how beautiful and diverse our planet is?

When a higher level soul or being decides to incarnate on Earth in order to assist humanity or the consciousness of the planet, a step-down process is necessary in order to be born into a human body. The dimension of consciousness present on Earth requires that a soul be broken or “shattered” as many describe it, in order to lose sight of and faith in the beauty and unity of truth. Once the soul is broken and has lived lifetimes as both a victim and a perpetrator of terror, the soul can then embark on the reverse journey of healing and repair. Essentially remembering who we were before being shattered and bringing this healing energy of unity, trust, faith, beauty, health, peace, and serenity back to a world that has been endlessly torn apart by war, judgment, pain, cruelty, shame, and betrayal.


Doubt in myself is something that has haunted me this entire lifetime. The shattering did its job on me, to be sure. I have spent years carefully reassembling the pieces of my heart, and yet I still find myself terrified of being at the mercy of other human beings. I know of unity and integration, and the alchemy of healing, clearing, and transformation of energies. The shadows are part of the mandala that is our existence as much as the light.

I lead a fairly solitary life. While being connected to others appeals to me, and I do have friends, I find it challenging to be really close to others. Being human does not come naturally to me. If, like me, you know yourself to be a starseed, you know what I mean. Competition and the hierarchies at work, admiring and following celebrities, needing likes on social media, belonging…all of these things feel foreign to me. Gatherings and parties, religion, communities and groups…I just never really feel like I belong to any of them.



Yet I know I came to Earth for a purpose, and that this purpose is to assist humanity, the  planet and all of her creatures and elements to ascend to a higher level of consciousness. I am here to assist others in their process if they so desire. I am here to transmute lower frequency energies in the air, the water, the soil, in the plants, animals, and insects as well as the disease and toxins in our bodies into higher frequencies. I do this in the privacy of my backyard and inside my house.

Living a human life in full alignment with my true self is my heart’s greatest desire. Yet the work I want to do seems to elude me. How to make a living making art and helping others to heal themselves without being a master marketer? How to be in the ease and flow of trust, of letting go and receiving the synchronicities born of living flow that is life? Each time I create a business, write a blog post, the customers and readers seem distant, silent. I never know if I touch hearts and minds, no matter how much I try. And I do try, over and over again, without too much expectation. Because it is more important to keep giving than to give into doubt and despair. As long as there remains a shadow of doubt, there is enough doubt remaining to prevent access to the higher dimensional experiences of unconditional love and connection.


Doubt and low self-esteem are a mark of lack. Lack of self-love, lack of confidence. Yet I was born by choice (I believe) into a family and into a life that repeatedly beat me up emotionally, cast me out. So that I could choose to become strong and not seek out love and support from others. So that eventually I would know myself as a powerful creator or realities and an endless source of unconditional love. Well, I’m still working on it.

For the last couple of years, I have wanted to quit my conventional job. The job that pays the bills. So that I can paint and write full-time. Because I haven’t yet experienced financial rewards from my artistic endeavors, doubt continues to haunt me. Is my belief system firmly anchored in the social illusion that one must give one’s time, energy, and lifeblood away doing work that one does not enjoy in order to receive sufficient funds to keep a roof over one’s head?

The ultimate question that doubt poses to me is this:

Can I trust myself?

I know that I, that each of us creates our own experience of reality. Our thoughts and beliefs from one minute to the next also reinforce or transform our collective experience of reality. Each time I invest in fear and continue to stay employed at a job that helps me to take care of my son in college, to pay my mortgage and car payment, to keep food in the fridge and the utility bills paid, I am reinforcing the status quo. Keeping myself in limbo, as it were. So how do I step into the unknown? How do I let go? How do I trust myself and stop behaving like a victim? How do I create with confidence and abundant self-love, the reality I truly wish to experience?


To be honest, I don’t yet have the answer to this question. I suppose a point of readiness will be reached, and I will make a decision. When I was five years old, I was thrown in a pool by an adult at a summer camp. I did not know how to swim, and it was a traumatic experience. One day, at the age of 30, if I remember correctly, I was walking past the municipal pool in Noisy-le-Grand, a suburb of Paris where I used to live. I had walked by that building many, many times. But on that particular day, I decided to walk into that building and inquire about the cost of swimming lessons. I purchased ten lessons, and I committed myself to learn the basics of swimming. When it came to jumping into the pool, the lifeguard, Vincent, was very kind. He held my hand. But, ultimately, I jumped into the pool alone. And I didn’t drown. I didn’t die. My body floated up to the surface of the water, as bodies tend to do.


How do we know when we are ready to live in love with ourselves and to cast aside fear and doubt? I believe that we are our own ultimate lovers.  We alone can fulfill all of the neediness we feel inside. No one and nothing else can solve the issue of empowerment. We all came to Earth to experience loneliness, separation, fear, shame, judgment. Some of us have suffered so much over so many lifetimes, it is hard to imagine how we can heal from these experiences. Ultimately, being broken into a million pieces over many lifetimes teaches us unconditional love of self and others. We’ve all been there, and once we attempt to stop judging self and others, we can cherish and understand how much we have all been through and how strong and brave we all are.


I raised my son by myself, with no family, no father. Having to hold everything together with limited finances. I am proud to have raised a son who is kind, smart, and a great student. He works two jobs to help put himself through school in Finland, while I do everything I can to support him. And now it’s my time to shine. To climb out from under the rock of sacrifice and realize that I am responsible for my own life and what I do with it. There is still a lot I want to do. No one is going to save me. I think it’s time to think about what I really want. To really believe in that vision. Beyond the shadow of any doubt.

Photos in this post taken during my recent trip to Helsinki, Finland. The first two photos are at Weegee, depicting Futuro, a space age house designed in the 1960’s by Finnish architect Matti Suuronen. It is part of the Espoo contemporary art museum, EMMA, and this year is the 50th anniversary of the Futuro house. The last photo is in Porvoo, Finland, depicting a monument commemorating the 200th anniversary of the Diet of Porvoo, establishing the Grand Principality of Finland in 1809. The art in the fifth picture from the top is a tapestry by British artist, Grayson Perry, exhibited on the fifth floor of the Kiasma contemporary art museum in Helsinki. The floating figures are at the Senate Square at the Helsinki Cathedral in a performance celebrating the Night of the Arts.

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